Sick conscientiousness?

Me, telling me off and philosophizing

Today is the first time I didn't go to the dance class. Maybe it is not an horrible crime, altought I'm feeling guilty. Can you understand it? Because me, not.

I think it's pretty delicate subject for me. I consider myself too conscientious person. Many times I don't let me take it easy, relax and much less to be lazy. I fell always responsable of everything. In the case of today's class, there weren't any obstacle to go. I didn't have urgent homework or other activity to do in this time. So the problem consist in that I don't know which was the reason of my decision. I fear to say that it was... laziness.

Actually, it was strange. When the class at the university finished, I had more or less one hour and a half. Like I didn't have it clear, I was just strolling into the tram station and asking me: which direction I will choose?

Concluding, I need to rezognize that when I got home, I regreted I hadn't choosed enjoy the dance class... However, I would like to defend me, explain the fact that occured. I have the right to loose so many classes as I want. I shouldn't categorize my election like a weakness, I think. There is no justification, that's truth, but it doesn't mean that I must give it every time I want to do this or other thing! 

Oh, so philosophical and psycological this post! Yes, but it forms part of my folk adventure. At the moment the unique negative consecuense of stay at home today will be perhaps unawareness of new steps, if they learn them, of course (not always we learn new things; sometimes we just repeat and improve what we know already). I sincerly hope the next time I won't doubt about go or don't go. Because, after all, the aim is TO ENJOY :)